So Max is almost 3 weeks old (on Friday) and has outgrown newborn clothes! I can't handle this! I can handle the crying, feeding, changing, loss of sleep... but growing so fast! I don't know about all this! This week he started his growth spurt so he's been incredibly fussy and eating like every hour or has days where he sleeps all day. It's okay, I'd take a million fussy days if that meant a million days with him. We're taking our first road trip this weekend down to Little Rock, so hopefully everything goes well. I'm pretty sure it will, but Bryan's been pretty skeptical. Max is getting to where he can hold his head up pretty well and it won't be too long before he's keeping it up... just a reminder of how independent he's going to get too fast. Speaking of, I got the annual question: Do you know what you want for Christmas? I can finally say right now I don't really know what I want. I have everything I need: my son, Bryan, our health, making it through school, etc. Life is pretty great and I couldn't ask for more. And of course, this Thanksgiving I know what I'm most thankful for.
Dear Maxwell,
It's been almost 3 weeks since you've been in my life. I can't believe it took this long for us to meet, but I've enjoyed every millisecond of it. You may scream your little head off, but I'm convinced God made you so adorable to make me forget all those things and focus on the good. It's about to be your first Thanksgiving soon. Do you know what you're thankful for? You're my number one this year. I am so blessed. I'm watching you sleep right now, and you're sprawled across the ottoman without a care in the world. I can't help but stare at you. You've spent barely any time in your crib because I'd rather have you in my arms or somewhere where I can see you. I'm so proud of all the accomplishments you've been making! You're going to reach your milestones very early, I predict. And it's going to make me cry like you to realize that you need me less and less. And then I'll have to give in eventually and have another baby to start fresh with. But you're always going to be number one in my heart. You're my firstborn, my surprise, the love of my life, and what keeps me going each day. Daddy and I are absolutely enamored by you. You're going to become something great, I can just feel it. I love you little goober.
Love always,
Mommy
"A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for."
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
He's here!
So I finally get it. Everything. In case you haven't been on facebook in the past 3 days, here's an update:
Went in to the hospital around 5 on Thursday. They induced and the wait began. And lasted 25.5 hours. At 7:33 pm on Friday October 30, 2009 my life was complete. Bryan Maxwell Speed was born, 7 lbs 13 oz 20.5" long. It's so crazy how my life has changed since then. My nights are now timed in 2.5-3 hr increments, I don't think the circles under my eyes have ever been darker, and I wouldn't trade my life right now for anything in the world. Hormones have gotten the better of me at least once a day. The first night with him, I think the nurses took him away and by the second hour, tears were streaming down my face because they hadn't brought him back to me and I couldn't get out of bed to go get him. Today thoughts of him growing up kept flooding in and I started thinking about when he wouldn't need me anymore, when he was grown, etc and couldn't stop crying. I went from being so headstrong about not having a child to being completely obsessed with my son from the minute he was born. He doesn't sleep in his crib much unless its at night because he's in my arms :) Things are starting to get easier I think, as we're slowly getting him on a routine. But sleep doesn't come easy unless he's asleep.
Dear Maxwell,
It's amazing how much you complete my life in ways I didn't ever imagine. I get teary-eyed thinking of you and how one day you're going to grow up and go off on your own and won't really need me anymore. I'm scared that time is going to pass before my eyes and before I know it you won't be a baby anymore. I really wish you could stay a newborn forever. You're so perfect. I couldn't have imagined a more gorgeous baby and although you've cried and kept us up the past 2 nights, you're really a good baby. I hate letting you down and get upset when I don't have you near me or in my arms. Of course, unless Daddy's holding you. You two are my everything right now. We love you so incredibly much. I've never seen Daddy so cautious. I never thought you'd get to me this way either. But you have and I'm not sorry. I just can't wait to get to know you over the rest of our lives. Thanks for completing me.
Love always,
Went in to the hospital around 5 on Thursday. They induced and the wait began. And lasted 25.5 hours. At 7:33 pm on Friday October 30, 2009 my life was complete. Bryan Maxwell Speed was born, 7 lbs 13 oz 20.5" long. It's so crazy how my life has changed since then. My nights are now timed in 2.5-3 hr increments, I don't think the circles under my eyes have ever been darker, and I wouldn't trade my life right now for anything in the world. Hormones have gotten the better of me at least once a day. The first night with him, I think the nurses took him away and by the second hour, tears were streaming down my face because they hadn't brought him back to me and I couldn't get out of bed to go get him. Today thoughts of him growing up kept flooding in and I started thinking about when he wouldn't need me anymore, when he was grown, etc and couldn't stop crying. I went from being so headstrong about not having a child to being completely obsessed with my son from the minute he was born. He doesn't sleep in his crib much unless its at night because he's in my arms :) Things are starting to get easier I think, as we're slowly getting him on a routine. But sleep doesn't come easy unless he's asleep.
Dear Maxwell,
It's amazing how much you complete my life in ways I didn't ever imagine. I get teary-eyed thinking of you and how one day you're going to grow up and go off on your own and won't really need me anymore. I'm scared that time is going to pass before my eyes and before I know it you won't be a baby anymore. I really wish you could stay a newborn forever. You're so perfect. I couldn't have imagined a more gorgeous baby and although you've cried and kept us up the past 2 nights, you're really a good baby. I hate letting you down and get upset when I don't have you near me or in my arms. Of course, unless Daddy's holding you. You two are my everything right now. We love you so incredibly much. I've never seen Daddy so cautious. I never thought you'd get to me this way either. But you have and I'm not sorry. I just can't wait to get to know you over the rest of our lives. Thanks for completing me.
Love always,
Mommy
<3 my two boys
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